I have tried to talk to my mom about the kind of trash she lets into her house, but she never listens to me. She sees me as the child, and she's the mother, so she's always right and I don't know what in the world I am talking about, even though I am an adult and make better decisions than even she does. When I was around age 10, seriously, I was making better decisions. She gave me a horrible impression of men when I was younger, I won't lie. All the guys she has ever been with screamed at her, screamed at me, stolen off of her, beaten their kids (not me, but not a single one of the many boyfriend shs'e had been able to actually keep and take care of their own kids. The guy she's with now got both of his kids taken away, and one of his kids, his daughter, said that he sexually abused her. I have no idea if that is true or not.) and tried to steal all of her things. I used to be afraid of both of her husband (when she was married I was a really little girl and couldn't defend myself) and they would have both of us in a corner sobbing and swinging bats and knives. And I guess I just grew up very angry natured and mistrusting of people. Especially men. I am trying to get past that stage, but there are just a lot of things that I can't get over very easily.
Actually, I understand where you're coming from. I have a cousin who I have a horrible problem with. My cousin Robin married this man called TJ, and I really liked him. I was really young (yet again, I was young) and he had two kids with Robin, a son and a daughter. Well, when I was young, I had no idea the bad side of the world because my grandparents protected me and kept a very strong eye on me. They mistrusted TJ immediately, and kept me away from him. Later on, we found out that he was sexually abusing his son and going for his daughter. My whole family wanted to get a piece of him.
It just seems that people in my family have this wonderful nack for choosing horrible men. The only ones are my grandmother and great-grandmother, they chose decent men who knew how to act and treat people. I hope I am meant to be one of them who chooses right.