Hey Squirtlenator~
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I just wanted to say hi to you and see how're you're doing lately~? I didn't hear back from you in private and thought I must of said something wrong and scared you off, apologies if that was the case. I didn't mean too. I've been struggling going through minor ups and downs with my mood or more self esteem lately. I always think I suck at communicating well with people my feelings or just in general talking. Thus causing to say the wrong things and causing people to leave. My confidence and courage levels these past 2 weeks been toughI have to admit and changeling for me as well.
So my self esteem wasn't as high as it was first was when joining PC from the start of this month. So if I ever said anything that offended or just something you didn't like I apologize. However yesterday and today things have been changing in my mood and life so far and I'm doing really great now. My therapist after a year and two months finally had an appointment with my mother and sister yesterday evening . My therapist was explaining to them what I've been talking about with her and how both of them can help me more than argue with me since they don't understand my pain or what C-PTSD really is.
To be honest my mother and sister are sadly not educated about PTSD in general and think what I have is an easy fix. However really it will take some years of me healing to get 100% well were I feel happiness and peace, perhaps for the first time even. So when I first met my therapist my mother found me, I told her the first step for me to heal from my C-PTSD is get my mother and sister on board so when I get triggered or have a bad day they can help support me better. Also understand me more and my struggles from years of people hurting me.
I'm not sure what was said my next appointment with my therapist I see her Friday. So she will tell me what happened in the session between all three of them yesterday. I really hope all good things and them understanding me a bit more as well, though we will see. I really do appreciate your support and kindness you've always shown me on here when we have spoken to each other a bit. You're a really great guy and good person, I hope you get the very best out of life as well, you deserve it.
Well I hope you have a great rest of the day/night, please take care~
Leaf~