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I didn't feel like grinding much. Johto doesn't give you an amazing place for power leveling. My team was actually around 34-36 when I approached the elite four, but I knew that wasn't going to cut it. I'm doing Kanto now. (such a slog sometimes, but I want to fight red). I'll likely do that around the low level 50's. I considered changing my team in Kanto, but that fight is going to be impossible with anything lower.

I was always told 'look at the wall' when presenting, but that never worked for me. I didn't want to be up there in the first place. I was in a class that forced us to present all the time, but it only helped for that specific class. The nerves would just start all over again when I was with another unfamiliar group. Group presentations are okay, as long as we can share the speaking. I don't know if this was a thing when you were in school, but they will grade every individual group member on how well they present. It's a bit rough.

It feels like a mental block. I can't exactly place what makes me nervous about opening messages, but sometimes I'll even get short of breath. Does not happen on pokecommunity, so it's totally fine. Although if I haven't talked with someone much here, I will feel the same hesitancy at first.

I beat Lance on my first try. I didn't think much of my team, but they really shined and I was proud. I didn't have an ice type, but Lanturn was incredible. It took every hit from the Dragonites and was able to weave in and out with thunder wave. They didn't have many moves to dent Steelix, so I switched back and fourth. Keep in mind my team was only around level 40. Entei didn't do much honestly. It was just kind of...there.

That sums up how I felt the first time I had a panic attack. No idea what was happening, because I didn't know what anxiety was. I knew the word, but I could never envision it to be so scary. I was not born with it, did not start until I became a teenager.

PokePark is very cute. It's clearly something to relax with and if you want excitement out of this, it's the wrong game. It's sort of open world. You control a Pikachu and walk around the park, making friends and playing minigames with other Pokemon.

I still have messages on other places, but I'm too anxious to click my inbox. I don't know why. Here it's no problem and I can talk casually, other places it makes me nervous and the messages sit for months.

Oh gosh the requests haha. Take your time with the game. I know I wish I could go back and play it all over again :'D

Lanturn has base speed 67, but also has base 125 health. You can get away with more in the early gens because there was less opposition. I always avoid Fearow because it's an early route flying type, but in Johto it's not completely weak. I don't take NPC trades because I would rather name my own team members. A shallow reason, but still a reason nonetheless. I might take Entei when I get the Masterball. I need a 6th team member and I don't feel like grinding. Legendary Pokemon don't bother me much. It's kind of fun having a super strong member as backup.

I'll be quite honest, I'm glad I was hospitalized. I was fully convinced that day that I was having a heart attack, after putting those things on my chest and doing an EKG, they determined my heart was healthy and that it was an anxiety disorder. As nice as the medicine is, there was a point that I did not have it and these panic attacks had been happening every day and every night. It's seriously no way to live. The diagnosis wasn't hard. After the EKG, they had me answer questions with the doctor and fill out a sheet. I'm assuming in most circumstances they would require blood work. Did not happen that way for me.

By the way, I got PokePark for the Wii. It looks fun and I'm going to try it after sending this.

I told this to Roni too, but it's always nice speaking with you. Sorry if I'm not always expressive about it.

I'm currently using two water types. Feraligatr and Lanturn. Johto isn't friendly towards grass types, and it's limited on electric types. Lanturn is one of my favorite pokemon ever, so it's a winning situation. I need a 6th team slot. It's currently Feraligatr, Fearow, Steelix, Hitmonlee, and Lanturn. I considered replacing Fearow for Skarmory, but I stuck with it for too long and now I'm attached. I caught the Lapras in Union Cave, which could help with Lance. It would make half my team water.

I kind of wish we could get all the maps at once, but on the positive side it's something to look forward to. I'm not good at Mario Kart either. Maybe next time we could get some DLC characters, like Kirby or Pikachu.

That's why I become so active on here at night. It gives me something to do because the first attempt at falling asleep never works. I don't fight with my body. I'll just stay up and keep occupied and try again later in the night. When I was dealing with panic attacks nightly, I would fall asleep at 4:00 AM and sleep until 6:00 AM. It's a vicious cycle, because lack of sleep can worsen anxiety, and you can't sleep because of anxiety. Looking on the bright side, there's plenty of youtube videos to catch up on. Not dealing with that anymore because medicine.

Oh yeah, they really made some interesting choices with its design. :'D I like its Therian form in a vacuum, but the Incarnate form kinda makes both look weirder than they already are, haha. But hey, at least we went from 898 total to 905 total Pokémon with it!

Good luck with the dex completion!

It took several hours. It was ridiculous. I had gone through multiple songs, podcasts, radio shows. I was on the verge of quitting when I finally found the Metal Coat and got my Steelix. I encountered Entei twice and Raikou once before I even got the metal coat. Been playing Legends of Arceus a bunch too. I'm at the noble Arcanine battle.

These virtual consoles were my childhood. It's so sad seeing this go. The $50 for the N64 switch titles feels excessive. I only bought it for my younger cousin. My Wii U is already homebrewed, but I still prefer playing the games legit. My younger cousin is autistic and loves trying games on different consoles, so I'll double down and repurchase stuff for him, even if we already own it. Otherwise, I wouldn't touch this expansion pack. The Mario Kart and Animal Crossing bonus is nice, I'll admit.

That's good to hear. I haven't been feeling as anxious lately. It comes and goes like a wave. I dislike when advertisements start talking about heart or health issues. It immediately sets off my anxiety. I listen for an escape, and that's the last thing I want to hear about. I just use colgate brand though. Sleeping is another difficult part with anxiety, because my mind never wants to shut off.

That is hilarious.

Yeah, I hope so too. Even if I no longer play I'd still like to be able to go back and just randomly log-in again someday.

Are blogs even a thing anymore on PC? I can still navigate to it via my own profile but it's not like on the front page anymore. Are they planned to be phased out? I'm so out of the loop lol.

Yup I have! I've just been shiny hunting and raising the Pokémon I really like. Also been trying out the mechanics I didn't explore at all while playing like Sticky Globs~

How about you?

I've been searching all day for a metal coat from a wild magnemite. It's only a 5% chance and I'm having no luck. It's either this, or I wait until Kanto for a Steelix. (The flaws of this region are starting to feel way more apparent). I'm feeling patient because there's always that odd chance I could run into a shiny, with all this running through encounters. I ran into Entei, but it fled.

Did you see the news about the e-shops shutting down for 3DS and Wii U? Very saddening. I'm strongly considering homebrewing my 2DS now. They've stated they don't even plan on releasing the games again. I don't understand.

Any sort of appointment will bother me months in advance. Hospitals and Denists Offices are a reoccurring nightmare for me. Usually that I'll be dropped off from a bus, and get stuck wandering endless corridors. Best of luck with it though.

Same with theme parks. I would estimate that I've had dreams about visiting theme parks between 15-20 times within the last year. They aren't scary.

I'll list some things I like. I think Johto is the most fun and well designed region to run around. Many optional caves and off the road paths. For example, when you get surf you can go south of golden rod and find some hidden trainers on a hidden patch of land. The eternity of Mt Mortar and Union Cave, blackthorn connects to the 1st route. I also like that you can change the order of how you do story events. I went to the rocket base first this time after Morty.

I beat the Lilligant in Legends of Arcues. The game is opening up and getting more fun. I don't particularly enjoy doing requests. (makes me almost fall asleep, and they give so many at once). I do like exploring the new areas. The highlight has been whenever a new place opens up and I can see what new pokemon are included.

I'm feeling better now. I'm not throwing up at all. It started as a simple cold chill, so I went looking for a jacket. Then it escalated in the span of a few hours. I hope you see improvement with sleep. I had a random panic attack last night, probably from the stress of being sick. I managed it quite well, just remembering to breath. Proceeded to fall asleep into a vivid nightmare. General Anxiety Disorder is a mess. Never experienced stress relief supplements, wasn't even aware of such things. I still take lexapro. Doctor gave me buspirone first but the side effects were terrifying. (like, random brain zaps. you can find what those are on google).

I have been playing as well! It's so fun. Probably the most fun I've had playing a Pokémon game in a long time. :3

Gen 2 has a problem with movesets. Quilava has ember until level 31. I love the generation, but it has flaws. Such as many johto pokemon being completely locked out until post game, the gym leaders primarily using kanto pokemon. It gets better towards the last half, when you fight Piloswine, Steelix, and Kingdra as the respective ace for each pokemon. (but still, would it have killed them to let morty have misdreavus).

I'll be honest, that I don't watch many lets plays myself. There are a select few YouTube channels I follow, but i'm content with those and won't branch out often. Chugaaconroy is much different in that series than how he commentates now. He's much louder these days. He's way less cynical and the vulgarity is toned down. I'm not a fan of lets plays in general because it just makes me crave buying the game.

Somewhat better. Unfortunately wasn't a great night (threw up 5 times). I started to panic and made things worse. I took a pill for anxiety, then stomach pain, then a general sickness liquid drink. Apparently I wasn't supposed to do that.

Have a nice valentine's day. I can't wait until they discount the candy.

If you want to make the website work right, you gotta invest resources into it, not a crappy NFT :B It's ridiculous really.

I read the JellyNeo page about it and I didn't even know they already tried to do an NFT thing before this one. Which crashed and burned badly.

Screenshot all of them.

Please disregard what I wrote.

I couldn't tell at the time, but it's not anxiety. It's some sort of stomach flu.

I can't think of any reason they would take mareep out. I guess maybe they want a reason to still purchase Gold/Silver? I got a tyrouge from the odd egg. I'm a bit nervous that it's going to give me hitmontop. It's stats are even right now. That has such a bad moveset. (seriously, look at this) https://pokemondb.net/pokedex/hitmontop/moves/2 Rolling Kick looks nice, but you miss it because it evolves at level 20.

I worded that poorly. I meant that he recorded and talked while playing, not talked over it. He said he's not a fan of post commentary, and will usually write a notice if it occurs.

Not feeling great right now. Random anxiety spike again. I can last it out...but it's so bad. Especially after having a good couple days, then it randomly rears its head in. I was planning on posting, but I guess I'll just respond to these couple messages and log off. Maybe I'll come back tonight. If so, I'll probably write more letters. Time is running out on it, at least it could make someone happy.

I'm not supposed to do this, but I'm tempted to take another dose of it.

Hello Janna! :D It's been too long.

How are you?

Would have been funny seeing the Pokemon running away from you for a change lol.

Geez, up until last year I was still vaguely into Neopets but it's not really been updated (I assume cuz of cost) and parts of it essentially no longer function and then they launched an NFT and it went to shit even more. I have no idea what Quizilla is lol, I'm old but not that old :B

I do wish for those old days sometimes.

I totally forgot that I can just trade with my sister. I'm probably not going to complete the pokedex anyways. I almost never get that committed into a game. I did start playing Crystal again randomly on my 2DS. The lack of variety is more apparent. Like, the choices in the start are caterpie, hoppip, pidgey, spearow, geodude. Just nothing stands out. I still love Gen 2. Mareep isn't even available in crystal so that's out too.

I don't watch him much because his humor doesn't work for me. Anyways that's a much older series, so the scripting is likely not present. It seemed back then he just recorded footage and talked over it, with editing sprinkled here and there. Then I guess when he began making a living off YouTube, he put more emphasis on his production value. I do remember some interesting things he stated. He was a college student and worked at a movie theater.

Mother 3 has a near perfect fan translation, so if you wanted to emulate it that's what almost everybody does. Otherwise, they fear the game has some aspects that would come across as offensive to western culture.

They should have made Repels make Pokemon run away.

Today I found out some GBA box art I shared online got used on a Tumblr that was themed after Myspace and was about 2000s nostalgia. It was a weird find lol.