It's getting better. From last year around this time untill around late summer I was somewhat depressed, confused and a tad bit bitter. I had to leave the university I loved, I owed that same university three thousand dollars, had to move back home, had to find a new job, etc. It was just a period of uncertainty. I know everyone has their rough times in life, but at that moment I thought it was just only me who was suffering.
Now I have turned things around albeit slowly. I decided I won't be returning to school next semester, and instead have sworn into the Air Force (I'm a military brat, and the AF has always piqued my interest). I have a new full-time job on what would have been my new university's campus, and I get to see and hang out with other college students and old friends. I actually have money again as well. I make enough to pay off a few hundred dollars of my debt every month, and still have half of my paycheck left for saving and entertainment.
Life isn't totally good though. I still am not where I fully want to be in life either education, relationship, or career wise. Most of my close friends are gone back to school, and I recently had a huge incident occur in my family that's going to drastically change the life of my dad. Despite all of this I am cheerful and back to my old self. I hate having that woe me attitude, and realize there will be struggles in life; hurdles that I need to jump over in order to become the person I want to be, and frankly as of now I'd say I'm ready to tackle them head on. Like Katy Perry's song, I'm wide awake now. I still dream, have goals, but also know what reality is. I'm still very young (just 19) so my issues won't be my downfall. I have an entire life to live and really it hasn't even fully begun seeing as I'm not entirely independent yet.
Now I have turned things around albeit slowly. I decided I won't be returning to school next semester, and instead have sworn into the Air Force (I'm a military brat, and the AF has always piqued my interest). I have a new full-time job on what would have been my new university's campus, and I get to see and hang out with other college students and old friends. I actually have money again as well. I make enough to pay off a few hundred dollars of my debt every month, and still have half of my paycheck left for saving and entertainment.
Life isn't totally good though. I still am not where I fully want to be in life either education, relationship, or career wise. Most of my close friends are gone back to school, and I recently had a huge incident occur in my family that's going to drastically change the life of my dad. Despite all of this I am cheerful and back to my old self. I hate having that woe me attitude, and realize there will be struggles in life; hurdles that I need to jump over in order to become the person I want to be, and frankly as of now I'd say I'm ready to tackle them head on. Like Katy Perry's song, I'm wide awake now. I still dream, have goals, but also know what reality is. I'm still very young (just 19) so my issues won't be my downfall. I have an entire life to live and really it hasn't even fully begun seeing as I'm not entirely independent yet.
